Broken, I Fall...

There are times when something happens in your life that exposes who you really are, you see past the hopeful and into the real. Today, I have begun to see. I am not the man I want to be. I am not the man I hope to be. I am not the man I thought I was.

I thought I was kind. I thought I was loving. I thought I had integrity. I thought I was honest. I thought I could be trusted. I thought I was honorable. I thought I guarded my relationships with diligence. Well, I thought wrong.

I have come face to face with the fact that I am in desperate need of forgiveness. I have seen that I have light years to go in being Christ like. I am so far from being like Jesus. I need your help Lord, make me like you. Change me, mold me, break me, make me into the man I am called to be.

I am terribly sorry. I am broken. I fall...

Holer Titus Football and the Male Ego

I am amazed at the competitive ego of men. We want to win so badly at almost everything. Ladies, I don't know how competitive you are or how you handle competition so I am going to refer strictly to guys in this post. For years, the Hole has lost the Holer Titus Football Game guarranteed. Yet, every year the Hole thinks it has a chance of winning. Then when we do lose, we get mad about it or we complain that if we had played the right guys we would have won. I am not a very competitive guy. I love to play sports and compete, but I don't get wrapped up in competition. However, there are times when I become extremely competitive and frustrated when I lose. This always occurs when I lose to a person or a team that in my mind I am better than. If I go into a competition thinking I am better than my opponent, I get very angry if I lose. Now, I am all for going out and giving 100%, but it seems men are more angered by losing to a "lesser" opponent than being beaten by a better or equal team after giving their all. For this reason, I believe pride is the root of the male competitive spirit. Its primarily when guys lose to somone whom they think they should beat that anger and tension occurs. If we could compete without our pride, we could really compete at 100% and truly have fun. If we could live our lives free from pride, what a free life we would have...